Notes about my work, projects, training, and life.
Recovery does not need lifelong supervision.
At some point, the work has to become internal.
Quiet check-ins matter because drift usually starts small: skipped standards, rationalized decisions, and comfort slowly becoming an excuse.
You do not need someone watching every move.
You need enough honesty to catch yourself before small compromises become a new direction.
Bonumark Stream is my self-hosted microblog CMS, and the latest work has been ActivityPub.
I wanted posts published on a site I control to reach the fediverse without turning Bonumark into another social network.
v0.8.1 made that real.
https://github.com/jimlunsford/bonumarkstream/releases/tag/v0.8.1
Discipline is easy to admire when it looks dramatic.
The real test is an ordinary Tuesday.
No crisis. No big deadline. No burst of motivation. Just the work that still needs to be done.
That is where discipline becomes real, in the quiet decisions you repeat when nobody is watching.
https://jimlunsford.com/what-discipline-actually-looks-like-on-an-ordinary-tuesday/
I am not one thing.
I am a husband, grandfather, runner, writer, builder, jail officer, former cop, recovering addict, software guy, and professional Milo supervisor.
They are all parts of me.
None of them gets to be the whole thing.
Last week was the grind of getting ActivityPub integrated into Bonumark Stream.
This week, the grind has shifted to migrating websites onto the new VPS and getting Google Workspace straightened out.
Different problems. Same laptop.
Rest is supposed to help you recover, not help you avoid your life.
There is a difference between stepping back so you can return stronger and disappearing because the work feels heavy.
Recovery still requires honesty.
Rest when you need it.
Just make sure you are resting from the work, not running from it.
https://jimlunsford.com/discipline-dispatch-rest-is-not-escape/
My life at 50 is a pretty strange mix.
Work at the jail. Run. Build software. Maintain websites. Write. Spend time with family.
Get supervised by Milo while doing most of it.
Then every once in a while, I remember I also own a television.
I’m working day shift this week.
I was told the move is temporary, but I’m hoping it turns into something permanent.
For now, I’m just looking forward to being home in the evenings with Kelly and the rest of the family. That alone makes the schedule change feel pretty damn good.
Standards are supposed to keep you steady, not trap you in a version of life that no longer fits.
Recovery changes. Responsibilities change. Your capacity changes.
The standard should still protect the same values, but the way you live it may need to evolve.
Adapt the method.
Do not abandon the principle.
https://jimlunsford.com/recovery-standard-standards-must-adapt/
